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Horror Movie Dreams

I’ve been getting some bomb ass sleep lately, which is great, but with those deep sleeps come some pretty wild dreams. I’ve been having scary dreams recently. I wouldn’t call them nightmares cause it’s not like I wake up terrified, but just where my dreams take on a real dark side.

I had one recently where I was going to a prescreening of a new horror film coming out and  it claimed to be ‘too scary for theaters’ or something along those lines. So I go to see this movie and within 15 minutes of it starting, it had people half way out of their seats in terror. Whatever was shown on the screen literally frightened every single person and we all began screaming and running out of the theater, myself included.

Over the next few days, strange things started happening to me and the people around me started to change. They began acting extremely ‘dark’ and I guess kind of evil. And somehow, whatever scary thing that was shown in that theater became a part of my life and I was being followed or haunted by this thing. People became shapeshifters and would morph into this black demonic creature thing and try to get me.

But because I lucid dream like almost every time I have a dream, I was aware that this was just a dream and I had nothing to be scared of. So in knowing that, it was my job to prove that this wasn’t happening and to show I wasn’t scared of this thing and that was the only way this demonic creature would go away and go back to wherever it came from. So that’s what I did lol

And that was basically the end of my dream. I ended up fighting it off and it never bothered me again.

I like to think this is some dream metaphor trying to tell me that there will always be problems or situations or obstacles that will happen, and they might scare me and try to break me, but it’s my job to push back and to not be afraid. And in doing so, I will succeed.

That, or I have out of body experiences while I lucid dream and my life is the movie Insidious and those are actual demons trying to take over my body while I’m sleeping and I for real fought them in dream land to get back to the real world…..

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Hey guys! So I’ve decided I kind of want to separate my photography from my blog. When I first started this, I had intended it to be a place where I could voice my thoughts and opinions on topics or however I happen to be feeling, and somehow I slowly ended up making it more about my photos, posting more about that than what’s on my mind.

I will still post the occasional photo or two on here, but as I’m beginning to build a portfolio for my photography semi professionally, I have created my own website where I can showcase my work for potential clients or really anybody to view and contact me.

I hope everyone who has continued to enjoy my photography will also check out my website as I will be posting the majority of my photos on there!

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I Have Too Many Thoughts

Today I decided to type up some of the random thoughts that pop into my head throughout the day and some of the things I think about on a daily basis when something happens. I always have a lot on my mind, but I don’t always express it. I just have too many thoughts and I don’t feel like I need to bother anyone with all my thoughts or questions on different things.

So anyway, here are 20 of some of the random thoughts I have:

  •  When I make my hedgehog look in the mirror does he know it’s himself or does he think it’s another hedgehog? I definitely underestimate him but I still don’t know just how smart he is. But swear, one time when I was super drunk he looked at me like he knew all my secrets.
  • Why do I own so many clothes when I only wear about 50% of them? And why do I still keep the things I don’t normally wear, as if I’m gonna magically start wearing them again?
  • It’s so annoying when people think they’re right about fucking everything and can’t admit they’re ever wrong. So they just argue about it and call you names because they don’t want to back down and just admit that they were wrong. Like stop being a stubborn little child and grow the fuck up.
  • I really suck at non physical communication with friends and people. I just don’t like texting or talking on the phone or messaging or anything like that. If it’s not an in person conversation, I basically have almost no desire to talk to you. I’ll receive a message, look at it, form a response in my head, and then not reply back. I mean, not always of course. I do reply sometimes but only if the other person is interesting and can hold an interesting conversation for a bit and not be boring. But even then I don’t reply right away.
  • I wonder what I smell like to dogs. Do I actually smell like my wild Madagascar vanilla lotion to them? Do they even know about vanilla?
  • I wonder what my hedgehog’s voice would sound like if he could talk. I hope he’d have a cute voice and not a super deep old man voice.
  • I LOVE blogging and writing and getting my ideas down on paper, or on the internet, but most of the time I’m consumed in life and having a good time that I feel like I don’t necessarily have time to write. Which is untrue because I totally have time, I just don’t take the time to sit down and blog. I honestly use that time to sit in my room and listen to music while I daydream or dance around. I like to think I’m too busy to come up with posts, but I really have a lot on my mind and a lot to talk about that I don’t actually say.
  • I don’t care if this makes me sound like a total bitch, but it’s honestly so satisfying to see someone I hate struggling in life. Like yasss bitch, you deserve it. I don’t care where you are or what you’re doing with your life, but if I happen to see you struggling and having a hard time, GOOD(: How can you expect bad things not to happen to you when you’re a shitty person? You struggle and your life sucks because you suck lol. But to everyone who I don’t hate, and those who have personally never done me wrong, I hope life is good and you all have great days and you feel loved and happy.
  • I really like potatoes. I should go eat potatoes.
  • People who complain at rock shows are annoying. Like I don’t get the people who go to hardcore shows or festivals like Warped Tour and complain that they ‘got hurt’ lol like you’re in the crowd what did you think was going to happen. That’s part of the experience; you have to expect it. I’ve been tossed around and kicked in the head and fell on by people too big to crowd surf countless times at shows and I never complain. I’m in the pit, of course that’s gonna happen. I’m used to it and I love it. I wouldn’t want to go to a show if it’s going to be boring and everybody is just standing still and not getting into it. But if you can’t handle that then you should just watch on the sides tbh.
  • Why do people insist on copying you, the things you have, and the things you say and do? Like you really have no personality at all that you have to try and take mine? I personally know a couple people who have no personality and no opinion on anything so they just copy everything I like, everything I say, and everything I do. There was this time I told someone a little detail about something I went through and now they’re using my exact words and phrases and telling it as their own story lol like what the fuck. Not only did you steal my memory but you had to use the very specific phrase I used to describe it and think I wouldn’t know. Retard.
  • It’s weird to me that I have shopping phases where I won’t want to buy anything and don’t buy anything for a few months, then all of a sudden I want to go out and buy everything I see that I want. (Of course I don’t do that, but still)
  • I find myself daydreaming a lot. Like is this normal? Does anybody else daydream profusely or is it just me? I will literally wake up in the morning, kill time on my phone by opening Spotify, listening to music while checking my emails, browsing through Instagram and Snapchat and my blog. Then I’ll just be consumed by random thoughts and start to daydream about something before deciding to come back to reality and participate in life. Or when I’m watching tv or eating, I start to daydream randomly.
  • I love counting my money everyday. Because I make so much money I literally love to count it every day. It sounds silly, but bringing out a big ass stack of 100’s and counting how many thousands I have everyday is so satisfying. And then when I get paid every week and get to add at least another thousand to it is even more satisfying.
  • I like being alone and I don’t mind it at all. I’m happy when I get to be by myself and I’m perfectly fine with that. But I’m also really happy when I get to be around friends. However, in all honesty I get bored of people so fast, or I’ll just get annoyed being around a lot of people so I’d rather be alone and enjoy my own company. Unless it’s my boyfriend, then that’s different. I really enjoy his company, even if we’re just sitting at home doing nothing; and he doesn’t annoy me at all lol
  • I hate how easily I tan. I know everybody wants to be tan and they try so hard to achieve a perfect tan, but me, on the other hand, I try my best to stay as light as I can. I’m not white or pale by any means; I naturally have a little tan to my skin, but I’m still considered really light. But I just never want to tan or get darker.
  • Props to the people who actually have the courage to come up and talk to me WITHOUT being a fucking idiot. Most of the time people are too scared to talk to me so they’ll just awkwardly stare at me as if I can’t see them and they’ll never actually say anything to me. Or I get the people who come up to talk to me but they just act stupid and think they’re the shit. Like, it’s totally fine to introduce yourself but don’t be dumb.
  • I’m really not sure why I love plushies and stuffed animals so much or why I have so many of them. I don’t ‘need’ them, but I obsess over their cute, derpy faces and I have to have them! I don’t think it’s a comfort thing, more like I love collecting and having a bunch of cute ass plushies with adorably derpy faces.
  • I love watching makeup tutorials and sometimes I’m like ‘hey that’s cute, I’m gonna do my makeup like that’ but then I remember I’m actually not that into makeup and don’t have the patience to do any of that shit. Just simple bb cream, bronzer, and mascara works for me(: I look better with less makeup anyway.
  • I’m very territorial. Like just in general. If it’s mine, don’t touch it, don’t use it, don’t even think about using it. Sharing is my least favorite word. Especially when it’s a material object and I know the person either has one of their own, or could easily go buy one. Like what the hell, do I look like a fucking Goodwill to you? How about if you want one go freaking buy it yourself because no, you can’t use mine. Again, my boyfriend doesn’t count. I don’t mind if he touches anything of mine because I know he respects my stuff. But anyone else wanting to use something of mine pisses me off so much. What’s mine is mine, including my boyfriend, so don’t touch him either lol

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Hope you enjoyed my ranting about some of the thoughts I  have, and thank you for stopping by my blog(:


Wisdoms Pt.3

Good afternoon and welcome back to another new blog post! Now the last time I talked about my wisdom tooth situation was at the end of February; which you can read here(: I mentioned how one of my bottom wisdom teeth had broken through my gums, but at the time I was not feeling any kind of pain or discomfort. I wish I could still say the same thing. A few months later now, and my mouth is in so much pain. Obviously the wisdom is coming in more and my gum behind that tooth is swollen and inflamed. Basically it’s so difficult to eat, and almost every time I chew I bite on a chunk of my gums back there. The other night I couldn’t even enjoy a nice acai bowl because it was too painful to eat. I had to stop because my gum started bleeding 😦

Shortly after my last wisdom tooth post, I had a dentist appointment to take new xrays and to be recommended to the oral surgery place that would be taking them out. After going to see the oral surgeon, I will have to take all 4 of my wisdoms out, and it will cost me a total copay of $550. Which is super disappointing because before we had to switch over to a different insurance, my brother had gotten all 4 of his removed and it only costed $175 in TOTAL. AND he didn’t pay for it. My parents paid it for him. But no, for me it’s $550, and I have to pay for it myself, without any offer to help from my parents. Like okay, I know you favorite the first child, but damn.

After getting the quote on what it would cost me, the surgery place had to send out paperwork AGAIN to my insurance so that they could pre approve it. So I had to wait even longer to get them removed.

A few weeks later I get a call saying they have the pre approval and to call them back to set up an appointment to get them removed. YESSS FINALLY!! But, of course it wouldn’t be that simple for me. I had asked if the quote I received during my first visit was still the total, and if I could make payments on it. Usually dentists are pretty helpful about doing a payment plan, but no, to my disappointment the lady told me that they don’t do that and I have to pay the total in full before my surgery. Awesome, there goes a decent chunk of my money…

AND THEN, when I asked when they could get me in for my surgery, the soonest was at the end of June. I picked a date that worked out for a family member to be able to drive me, and I settled for Tuesday June 21 at 9am. When I had first made the appointment, it was May 20th. So I had to wait ANOTHER month before I could have them out. At this moment it’s June 11th, so I have just over a week until the surgery.

I’m relieved I am finally getting them removed but I’m also totally terrified. Any kind of surgery involving my mouth or throat is crazy. Like they have to dig into my jaw to get my teeth out.. that’s fucking scary lol

I’m not looking forward to it, but I am looking forward to it if you know what I mean.

Anyways, thank you for stopping by my blog and I hope everyone has a great day!(:

 


What A Week!

This week has been crazy! As my first week back from being in California with my boyfriend, it was a very productive and long one! I have only been back in Vegas for 11 days but it feels like I’ve already been here for a month since I worked every day for long hours and was exhausted every day. It made my days seem way longer than just 24 hours. But what a week it has been for me! Just as I predicted I made over $3000 for the week and I could not be happier. Thanks to all the people who came to Vegas and made my work week awesome(:

Unfortunately all my bills are due next week so a little over $1000 of what I just made will be gone, but the rest is all mine to save. 

Again, I’m deciding to type up a blog post at the weirdest time; it’s currently 1:50am and I don’t really know why I do this. I’m just kind of laying in bed right now and typing things up as they come to me xD

But yeah, I just wanted to share what an amazing work week I had(: It’s funny to think I’m only going to be in Vegas for maybe another two weeks until I head back to Los Angeles again 😂 but I’m always there anyway. I basically live in LA and work in Vegas. 

I’m really excited for the next couple weeks and of course going back to LA cause that’s where my cuddly boyfriend is, and I can’t wait to see him again(:

I ended up deciding to take the next couple of days off just to relax and reward myself for working as much as I did last week. Plus I have a couple of appointments to go to and things to take care of. 

Hope everyone had a wonderful week as well! And thanks for stopping by(:


Late Night Thoughts

Last night when I couldn’t fall asleep I was having random thoughts about my life and decided to type it up on my phone. But again, I was so tired I didn’t actually post it xD So I’m just going to post it now, as I wrote it last night. 

Right now as I’m writing this, it is 12:57 am, I’m so tired and exhausted from work but I can’t sleep, and I can hear my hedgehog crunching away at his food.

I’m having late night thoughts about my life and just how things have been. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a little stressed, but that’s just because I have been working everyday for like 10 hours. I constantly come home exhausted and never get enough sleep for the next day; and as much as that bothers me to come home feeling like poop everyday, I can’t really complain because with the crazy amount of money I make, I’m willing to sacrifice my days for. It’s not like I have much to do in Vegas anyway to be honest. My boyfriend currently lives in Hollywood so it’s not like I have him to look forward to or hang out with everyday, and the one friend I have works too so we don’t get to chill a lot. I don’t have much to do so why not be at work and make money?  I pretty much dedicate my time in Vegas to working and making my thousands every week, and just saving everything so I can actually enjoy life and not struggle with money. 

Thinking about how things currently are and what the future holds makes me really happy. I can’t complain about how crazy awesome my life has been and how positive things are. I’m making my money, managing my finances, traveling and doing the things I want to do, and I have an awesome boyfriend who I care so much about and adore. Like it can’t get any better at the moment. And I’m so proud of the things I have accomplished in such a short amount of time. I want to stay on the path I’m currently on for a while, and I may never have to work again and just live off my riches. Cause I don’t know about anyone else, but I plan to retire when I’m 30 🙂 I’m not trying to work for the rest of my life lol

It’s currently spring break in Vegas, meaning there is lots and lots of people coming into the city and that gives me a chance to make so much money off of them. I normally average about $1500 a week, but since it’s spring break and super busy at work I’m expecting to make a little over $3000 for the week. So that’s pretty cool. I mean, who cares about not being able to go out and do things when I’m making that kind of money lol 
But life has been good. I’m grateful for everything I have and everything I am able to do because I made it happen for myself. Nobody helped me with anything, or helped me get anywhere, and it feels good to say all the things I have I paid for myself and did everything myself. I’m grateful for all the opportunities that have come my way and I’m grateful for the way my life changed so fast, and the life I am able to live. 

It’s like almost 1:30am right now, so I should try and get some rest.

Thanks for continuing to stop by my blog! Have a great day everyone, and here’s to the future!(:


Devil Scratches 

So the other day my boyfriend and I were sleeping and out of nowhere at 5am I get woken up by the sound of loud scratching. It was creepy and it sounded like it was coming closer or like it was right by my ear. I had been asleep but had been hearing it go on for about 10 minutes. I immediately thought devils for some reason lol I was like oh my god is there a devil scratching at the wall or something??? I didn’t even know what to think. 

But then I opened my eyes and looked down to the floor all tired and I see my little pet hedgehog rummaging around on the floor, scratching at a box. And I was like wtf is he doing? What’s he doing on the floor?? HOW DID HE GET OUT OF HIS CAGE??? 

I just kind of looked at him for a minute and was so confused. I got up and went to pick him up but I couldn’t really see him too well, so I walked over to turn on the light and stood there for 5 seconds while my eyes adjusted. 

I walked back over to where my hedgehog was but he was no where to be found. So again I was like WTF. 

At this point I was tripping and thought maybe I was imagining things cause how could he have possibly been on the floor instead of in his cage? How could he even get out of his cage when it’s 16 inches high? I came to the conclusion that I was basically on drugs and seeing things earlier cause he definitely wasn’t just casually chilling on the floor. I go to his cage to make sure he is sleeping in there, but I check AND HES NOT IN THERE. So of course I trip out even more cause I’m still 80% asleep and I’m not sure what the fuck is going on; if I’m seeing things or dreaming this. But I was like okay I saw him on the floor and thought I was dreaming, I checked his cage and he’s not in there, so I must not be dreaming, but I turned around to look at him and he wasn’t even there so wtf is going on here 😂 At the time, I couldn’t make sense of anything lol

So I go back over to the bed to look for him, thinking he’s hanging out in one of the shoes or something but he wasn’t there. I had a feeling he crawled behind the bed since he’s a hedgehog and likes to hide in small spaces. And surely enough after I shined a light behind the bed he was all nestled tightly inbetween the bed and the wall. And then I was like ‘RALPH! WHAT THE FUCK MAN!?’ 

I had to wake my boyfriend up so he could move the bed back so I could grab him and put him back in his cage. 

Turns out he did find a way to get out of his cage. He ended up crawling on top of his litter box and climbed up the side and fell 16 inches from the top of his cage. What a little retard. 

So a couple of questions come to mind:

Why was he trying to escape? I give you everything and you’re trying to escape why??

Did it hurt when he fell out of this cage? Cause that’s a pretty big drop and I hoped he didn’t get hurt.

How long was he out of his cage for? We fell asleep around 1am and he woke me up a little after 5. So he could have been cold and hungry the whole time.

Why did he decide to come over to the bed? Which I’m glad he did do, because there are so many places he could have hid and gotten wedged between. Like behind the oven and I would just cry…

Hopefully he learned his lesson and won’t be trying to find ways to climb out again, since there’s no food, water, or warmth outside of his cage lol

Long story short, a hedgehog scratching at a box next to your bed at night is scary and sounds like a devil scratching at your walls. 

Never underestimate a hedgehog.

Thanks for stopping by! 

And have a great day, everyone(:


Random Photo… #12

Hey everyone! Thank you for stopping by my blog. I’m feeling too busy to type up a real post at the moment since I’ve been back in California with my boyfriend for awhile now. I’m basically here every month now lol like I live in Hollywood but work in Vegas 😂

We’ve been hanging out everyday and having adventures so I don’t have much time to post about a lot, so how about a quick random photo(:

Please enjoy this photo I took of my pet hedgehog Ralph, using my phone to check his Instagram page(:

 
Feel free to follow him on Instagram HERE!(: 
Have a great day everyone!(:


Wisdoms Pt.2

It’s been just over a year since I first wrote about my wisdom teeth coming in and having some discomfort with them. If you’d like, you can go back and read it HERE. I was told that all four of them are impacted and that I would need them removed. But when they sent out the request to our insurance to get me approved to get them taken out, our insurance said no. Because they’re dumb as fuck and said that my wisdoms have to be actually coming in, breaking through the gums, and to be infected before they can approve it for me to get them removed. Which is the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard. I need to have an infection in order to be approved to get my wisdoms taken out WTF. The longer I have them, the more they will grow in, and since they’re impacted, they will push against my molars and make all my other teeth crooked.

But anyway, back to the actual point of this post. I haven’t had any kind of oral pain or gum or jaw aches or anything like that. Not like last time. But last night I was chewing ice cubes and the lower right side of my mouth felt kind of weird. It felt like I had some food stuck somewhere. So I felt around that molar with my finger and I felt the top of my wisdom tooth already out of my gums. And it’s the same one that was causing me pain last year. In the xray it showed that was the one that was coming in quicker than the others.

So two things, I haven’t had any pain or discomfort at all considering one has already broke through my gums. I didn’t feel any different other than thinking I had food stuck there but it was really just my wisdom poking through.

And two, of course I knew I was going to have to get them removed because all four are impacted, but I was totally dreading this day where I knew I would have to get them removed soon because they broke through my gums. As most of you may know, if you’ve been following my blog, I am not afraid of needles at all and surgeries are no big deal for me now, however, I am actually pretty nervous for this one surgery. It gives me horrible anxiety just thinking about it and what will be done. Maybe because I know they’re gonna have to dig deep into my gums to take them out ._. I mean, I know I will be relieved to have them gone, but the thought of it right now is a little scary.

This morning I made my appointment to go to my dentist so they can do updated xrays to see where the rest of my wisdoms are at the moment and so I can get approved to get them removed now. As much as I wish I could just avoid all this, and just let them grow in, that’s not even an option. I have no room for them, plus they’re all impacted so they won’t come in straight anyway, if at all. So these babies have to get yanked out ._.

This is the part where I would normally attach a photo showing what’s going on, but I couldn’t get a good angle on that wisdom coming in lol

But yeah, Wednesday morning is my appointment and I really hope my insurance approves it this time for me to get all 4 removed.

Thanks for stopping by my blog!
And have a great day everyone(:


Random Photo… #11

Hello and good morning! Please enjoy this photo of my pet hedgehog in his new pineapple house(:

  
Thanks for stopping by!

And have a great day(: