Last night I went to sleep pretty late for me and when I did go to lie down at 2am, I shut my eyes and it was instantly like I was being pulled into a dream world that was so dark and evil. The second I closed my eyes, I was already dreaming but I had not fully fallen asleep yet, and my ‘dreams’ were evil and demonic. Like death, possessions, and demon type shit. It scared the crap out of me to be honest, but in the dream I just let things happen and play out cause there was nothing I could do about it.
When something evil was coming near me, I would get a feeling like a wave of chills that would flow over my entire body and while I was sleeping, consciously, I felt that same wave of chills go over me in real time, happening as I was dreaming it was.
For those of you who may not know what lucid dreaming is or have never dreamed lucidly themselves, you may not understand what I’m talking about, but definitely check out my post on lucid dreaming by clicking HERE; or just scroll down to my categories list on the right side column of my blog and click on the dream category to see more about my random dreams. I’m used to dreaming lucidly since it’s a natural thing that happens to me almost every time I sleep, but it’s not often that I have such dark and evil dreams like this.
So these dreams; in one of them I was in an old looking house that I’m sure I’ve never actually been in before but maybe I had seen it in a movie. I was pacing around in the living room playing a game on some little analog device and it was starting to die out so I started walking towards the kitchen to find some batteries. I walked into the kitchen and my dad was standing in there in front of the sink, with his left side of the body towards me. I had said something to him and he turned to look at me. Only it wasn’t my dad. It was a demon. All charcoal black, ugly skin that looked like wrinkly leather. It was scary as hell and it tried to attack me so I ran away into the other room. I had woken up for a split second and just moved around a little in my bed, still lying the same way with my blanket over me, and hugging my stuffed animal.
Then I drifted back into it.
And this was a completely separate dream. I was with my mom; or what was portrayed to be a mom figure to me in the dream. I was sitting on a random dirty mattress in the living room and this woman, (mom), walked over to me from the corner of the room and told me to do something. I said I didn’t want to and she just looked at me, and then tried to kill me ._. And not in a super quick and violent way. She came over slowly and calmly, with what looked like a big bed sheet and she slowly wrapped it around my face and neck and then tried to slit my throat with a big knife she pulled out of nowhere. It didn’t happen though. I got up and punched her in the face and jumped out the broken window where I met two random ass little girls at the bottom. They were probably about ten years old, and all of a sudden when I looked at myself, I was a little girl too. And we ran away into the street to escape from our danger. (Yeah idk what that last part was about, that was just weird lol)
These dreams were so quick yet dark and evil and it freaks me out that I just had them. I haven’t had dreams like that in many years; like since I was a sophomore in high school, so this is weird. They seemed to only last not even ten minutes in total, but I was gone for about 45 minutes. It was scary because I was lucid and I knew that I was sleeping and aware that these were just dreams, and that my mind was coming up with this. I knew that I could easily just wake up from it like I had just done the first time, but I didn’t try to and I don’t know why. That was some scary shit.
And when I did wake up, I woke up to look at my phone because in the last dream I heard my phone go off to a certain text tone, from a certain person. And when I woke up and looked at my phone, there was a message there from that person with that text tone. But it’s almost like that brought me back to the real world and reality. I was really freaked out and didn’t want to go back to a dream like that or have something similar be dreamed, so I had to distract myself and make sure I wasn’t scared anymore before going back to sleep.
So I turned on spotify to an All Time Low playlist, and listened to a few songs as I typed this up in a notepad app in my phone; which is where I’m getting all this remembrance from, and also why this is being written in the present tense like it had literally just happened and I’m writing about it in real time.
I was still scared after and I felt like I was being watched in my room. But that could just be my paranoia. I just have to distract myself and soon enough my mind will get around it. I ended up turning on my tv to illuminate my room so there’s light in here with me. I think I’m going to sleep with the tv on to make me feel better.
I guess I can’t say I don’t know why I just had that kind of dream because you see, dreams have a funny way of telling you things about yourself and your own life that maybe you’re oblivious to or have pushed aside. That’s part of it being run by your subconscious; because your subconscious sees all and doesn’t miss anything.
I assume these dreams are the result of what has been going on in my life and the recent events that were very upsetting to me; so upsetting that I think about it during the day and it effects me that much. Yesterday was an extremely emotional day for me because I talked about it openly and let out everything that was happening that’s been making me upset. I barely talked to any of my friends yesterday because I needed time for myself to get over things and let go of these negative vibes.
Dreams like these tend to sum up the previous day for you in some strange way and present your problems to you in the form of devils and demons; but that doesn’t necessarily mean that you are really dreaming of devils and demons. It’s just your problems being presented to you in a different way, thanks to your dream world.
And yes, if you couldn’t tell, I’m quite the dream enthusiast. I have so much insight and knowledge on this stuff because it was always something so interesting and intriguing to me growing up since I would always have a lot of crazy and wild dreams; and I always did a lot of research on the subject when I was in middle school.
But I’ll stop being a big nerd now.
Anyway, just thought I would share this random experience I had earlier this morning.
Be sure to check out my other dream posts, if you’re interested in that kind of thing(: